Currently sipping: Green Tea Chai (love saying that aloud)
Currently listening to: Carter Burwell – A Nova Vida
Hello guys, how are we?
I’m currently in a weird mood feeling quite inspired. I have recently been communicating with some fellow Aspies on WordPress & haven’t felt this inspired in a very long time. Just when life felt like it was becoming pointless & I was a waste of space I speak with these beautiful people that give me hope.
I know this feeling probably won’t even make it until tomorrow but I feel good right now & right now is all that matters in my world.
I had a bad evening yesterday as you can probably tell from my previous post. I won’t lie I had a cry to my mum today when I got home from the gym. I’m not one to be open with my emotions AT ALL. I often will cry to myself & think others will see me as ‘weak’ but I want those close to me to understand me better & see why I get upset.
So today I realized the only close friend I have is planning on moving out soon. It hit me how immature I am & how behind I am. So I walk upstairs & ask my mum for a cuddle then break down in tears trying to talk but sounding like a child. “I just want to be normal” was all I blurting out. But the funny thing is, normal is far from what I want to be 😀 I hate normal people. They drive me insane following the latest trends like a bunch of brain deads. But I meant in the sense of doing the things ‘normal’ people do..eg, make friends, work & be happy.
I feel like my life is too simple at the moment.
The reason I’m sharing this is because as most of you will know I am trying to be more open with people (even if it is with people online that don’t know the first thing about me).
I also have reached 97 followers on this thing! I’m happy that I have people that actually like my blog 🙂 Anyway guys I’m going to carry on feeding my brain with some new things online 🙂 Have a lovely weekend & I will be blogging soon 🙂