I once again find myself falling, only this time it doesn’t involve darkness it contains something mystical & new. I find that in life we often assume. In fact we assume a lot. We believe that we are not able to conquer our wildest dreams. We doubt ourselves on anything that floats beyond our cozy bubble. I stare into empty space with thoughts running full speed. I have come to realise we often seek too much for the future without realising our lives are racing past. We end up frightened about our future. This all stems down to us not having any control over the future. I sit here today feeling inspired by those who give me encouragement. Those who tell me I can do it. I then think to myself why should I rush this? I have each day here in front of me to conquer as much of this day as possible! I often sit & analyse life. The billion dollar question; why are here & what purpose should we serve? Well I came to realise, for what ever reason I am here I will not question it anymore & maybe sometime I will realise why. Even if it comes down to my last breath it is not worth worrying about. The beauty of it is, we are living in this beautiful world full of countless opportunities. There is beauty & newness all around us but we often find we fall into depression worrying too much about things that do not matter!
Anyway to sum this up, I will tell you a little about me & why I wrote this today. From a young age I needed a way to express myself. I was never one to express this vocally it was simply pen to paper that fitted perfectly. I have had journals from the age of 9. I would write everything from what I done in that day to how I felt. It was my life. It was for my eyes only, it was another door to my soul that I wished no one to see. Fast forward 9 years at the age of 18 I started becoming interested in my dreams. I would have the weirdest dreams. Some bizarre to the point I had lost a ring my mother had brought me & in this dream a woman told me where I would find this ring. Well believe it or not I went there the next day & there it was laying in the grass. So from the age of 18 I also started writing about my dreams, I mean some of them would take up pages! These were also my secrets I didn’t want anyone to know. They will come in handy one day. Well ‘one day’ is very soon. I have been writing expressive poetry & short stories for a few years now and feel it’s time I take my passion further. With the help of those close to me that gave me faith in what I could do I am starting to look into writing a novel & dedicating more time into finding out more. I would really appreciate any help from you writers out there 😀
I believe that life isn’t short if you live it to the fullest. It’s only short if we waste it. This is why I am changing my life around. Novel’s don’t write themselves 😉