So today I woke up feeling very unattached from myself. I knew straight away it was because of the post I had posted the previous night.
I really can’t handle being an open person. I fear the obvious – being judged or mocked. I loved the idea that I was a closed chest and no one could get in. I always assume that people will see my posts as attention seeking when I hate attention being all on me. I feel as if people don’t really understand me or think I’m petty. I know this all stems down to the depression itself. I don’t expect or want sympathy I just want to share my experiences and hear yours 🙂 It makes me feel closer to you all more than ever because we all in some ways have something in common.
So I found myself contemplating whether to take the post down. But then I thought to myself, there may be someone out there that just really needs someone to talk to that could understand them. If anything that post has just given me more fire to start my book & be hopeful for the future.
After this very negative post I feel like I need to write something positive. But at the moment my mind is stuck in black mode. I still need to write this short story I told you guys I would work on 😉 But for the time being I fancy writing some poetry on something positive. Any ideas would be lovely!!
Hope you are all having an enjoyable weekend..