Have you ever felt so lonely that the slightest gush of wind on a silent night is welcomed?
The world is too quiet. No one feels your pain. No one sees your fight in life. No one can taste the emptiness like you can.
These four walls surrounding me lock me away like a prison cell, yet this I do welcome.
Loneliness can be a beautiful thing.. It’s in these moments we can really feel present. We can touch life with our own bare hands and embrace it. In these moments time doesn’t exist, the clock hanging from the wall has no meaning – bin it.
In these moments the lies we like to believe become more visible. Our own visions become reality. In this feeling I don’t want cuddles or love. I want someone to share this feeling with.
Loneliness could be the drug. Enough to tip you off the edge. Enough to take your own life. Or it can make you realize these material things some fight so hard for won’t save us. Sometimes loneliness can make those around you fizzle away as if they never existed. That little mind kills off everything in it’s path leaving you raw and touched.
Tonight I feel alone and I don’t really want to fight it. Just going to embrace it..