It’s been 4 weeks into my new job.. I am no longer the night owl but I still hate waking up in the mornings. I’ve converted into a coffee drinker first thing and eating fruit throughout the day to give me energy. I feel like a new person. I dreaded the day I’d have to work again as I never seemed to settle or feel completely at ease but the managers are amazing and everyone seems pretty friendly.
For the first time in years I feel I have something to give and something to prove to myself, being: I am capable of doing anything I want to achieve. I enjoy having something to wake up for and look forward to my daily texts from Blue to keep me going. I enjoy the independence I now have and the responsibility I am given within the company.
I haven’t had much free time to blog as I usually get home and want to put my feet up, relax and see my friend/surrogate mother Shelly for a coffee. I did think to myself, what shall I do with my blog.. Shall I keep it or destroy it? Obviously I will not destroy it, I’ve made that mistake in the past with journals. I came to an easy decision of keeping this and writing in here whenever possible.
Ok, so I’ve had a few days holiday from work so went up to Liverpool to celebrate Blue’s grandparent’s Diamond Wedding Anniversary. I stayed two nights and had a great time there. I probably had a few glasses too many but it helps me communicate with strangers better 😀 So what the hell! We came home today after visiting Chester on the way home for lunch, which was delicious.
I must admit, once I woke up this morning I knew I was shutting down. I felt absolutely brain dead. I couldn’t force the energy to talk as much as I probably should and do this thing where I kind of resist people. I can’t control what thoughts are whizzing around my mind and I can’t control my mouth from exposing them. It’s awful. I know this feeling when it comes and still can’t fudging control it. I am much better now anyway that I have my music at hand and loads of tea and relaxation.
I haven’t blogged in so long that I haven’t introduced you all to my friend Fiona who is new to WordPress. I met her just over a year ago and she has taught me many things since. We have a lot in common from our pasts and both have an interest in anything creative. She is a talented writer who I’d love you all to meet. Find her blog here: www.finmackenzie.wordpress.com
Thank you for reading everyone and I hope you have a good start to the week. I can finally say after all of these years I am proud of myself for turning my life around. There are still many things I’d like to work on but like my friend Shelly says ‘baby steps…’