Hey people! It’s been so long since I last posted *deep sigh*. I have been thinking a lot these past few weeks about my blog. I have been trying to decide whether to delete or keep. I’m not sure if it’s because I feel like I’m on my way out of that dark place now and the thought of looking back through previous posts will bring me down… But I’ve come to the decision of keeping it. It’s a part of me and who I was and who I have become.
Anyway after having a check through my blog just now I realised I had been awarded The Liebster Award by the lovely Chris Wilson a few months ago! I am so sorry Chris that it has taken me a few months to respond! Thank you so much for awarding me and thinking of my blog. Although I am unsure of whether I am depressed right now I know it doesn’t just disappear and can reappear at any time. But one thing I do know for sure is that I am always happy to help anyone going through a similar thing and will try to give decent advice from my own experience.
So, now I will get started with the questions Chris has asked me:
- 1. The three words you would use to describe your blog?
Insightful, Passionate & Honest.
- 2. What drove you to start your blog?
Well, it all began a few years ago when I was at weakest and I was searching the internet for ‘answers’ and stumbled across a mental illness awareness blog which inspired me to create my own blog.
- 3. Do you believe there is a cure for mental illness?
This is a very tough question. I do believe there is a way out of the darkness. I’m not sure so much about a cure though. I personally have never reacted well to medication and have never liked the idea of relying on medication to phase me out of my own reality. Taking a pill which blurs the problem isn’t necessarily ‘curing’ the problem that is still underlying there. I personally tried therapy which didn’t help much either. The greatest help I found was stepping out of the picture and looking at my life and the things that made me unhappy or uncomfortable with my own life and trying to fade them out and focus on the things that did make me happy. I also found the support from friends that I finally let in and help worked wonders and also finding love in someone who truly wants the best for me has nearly cured me.
- 4. Can mental health sufferers help others in the community to understand mental health problems?
When the time is right for those that are suffering to talk then yes, I believe they could. Although saying that, I have learned to be more empathic towards others and with doing this I have learned that, like myself, it’s not always easy to understand something you personally have never gone through. I personally feel that I could probably help others understand my past now that I’m not at my weakest anymore rather than being depressed and trying to get my point across.
- 5. Which treatment have you found most beneficial?
Talking to people. Actually opening up to those you feel you can trust and releasing your fears, anger, frustration and the many feelings and emotions we feel along the way to someone who wants to listen. Being around animals. Spending time with nature and finding yourself. Reading books!
- 6. Do you think mental illness should be regarded within society as an “illness”, a “disability”, or as an “opportunity” to understand other ways of thinking?
I have to say ‘illness’. The society I live in or the world how I see it, can be ignorant. Depression to me is an illness and it did affect my mind and my soul. I was unable to function or think rationally about anything. I couldn’t focus on anything but myself. I lost all care for my own life and couldn’t focus on daily tasks or work. People around me saw life differently to me so when you’re not capable of working a days work because you are mentally and physically unable to, that can seem strange or even a poor excuse to those that do work. So my answer is a mental illness should be regarded an illness within society, but to the sufferer, they can regard it however they like as they are the ones living in the dark.
- 7. Do you feel any positives can be drawn from such conditions. If so, what positives?
Of course! Until you experience the worst you can’t appreciate the best. It may sound strange but I appreciate people more. Having asperger’s syndrome life was like a big role play growing up. I mimicked a life I dreamed perfect. I wasn’t myself. I now see people that are happy and they remind me that I can smile too and I also see people that are sad and that reminds me I have been there. I appreciate their struggle and pay a few moments thought to them. I also notice the change in my lifestyle. Just being able to talk to people and do new things without feeling sick is one of the many positives drawn from depression.
- 8. Do you feel that the gap between sufferers and non sufferers can ever be really bridged?
At this moment in time I feel that it can’t but, I also am very open minded and anything can happen. It all depends on the human and their own selfishness.
- 9. Do you have any survival or remedial tips to pass on to anyone?
Yes. Things change. We grow and expand excessively in life. Somewhere in us there is strength. It may take a while to find it but I promise you it is there. There is no quick way out, so don’t put yourself down about being in the situation you’re in. In time you may be in a different place and you may not feel the same way.
Don’t let your mind control you! The mind is a precious thing but also very destructive. There are plenty of self help books out there to read and gain a better understanding of your mind and how it works.
There is always a way out – to those who see no light. You can feel so alone and life paints a black picture but there is help out there. I will attach some links below to some helplines for those that are not breaking through.
If you have the money, get yourself a cat or dog! 🙂
- 10. What keeps you going when times are tough?
My family, friends and boyfriend. I used to be so closed off that no one could get through but when I have a bad phase now I go over to my friend Michelle’s for a coffee and a cry. Then we sit and talk and I forget about it all. I also call or text my boyfriend to warn him that I’m not happy at that time and he is always supportive. I also have two dogs which have always kept me sane throughout my entire life. Being aspergic and being able to communicate better with animals they have always managed to settle me after a meltdown.
- 11. Try and complete the sentence… Tomorrow I can, Tomorrow I will…..
Tomorrow is a new day. Excuse my bland imagination tonight! 😀
Now I give you 11 random facts about me:
- It’s taken me 24 years to understand friendship and appreciate genuine friends.
- I love water, being in water, hearing water, being near the ocean, seeing the ocean, hearing the ocean – you get the picture?
- I bond better with animals than humans.
- I always dream of UFOs taking over the world *clenches jaw*.
- I hated trying new foods until I met Blue.
- I love gardening and find it therapeutic.
- I love fantasies.
- I used to be quite selfish until now.
- I’m not an adrenaline junkie but have started to enjoy pushing myself to my limits.
- I lack self control.
- I burned all my diaries whilst going through depression. Something that I now regret deeply.
My questions for you:
- What inspired you to write a blog?
- Does your blog play an important role in your day-to-day life?
- What are your favourite words and why?
- Is there anything you are currently seeking, whether it be love, ambition, self awareness etc.?
- What would you like to achieve before you die, so you leave contently?
- What is your favourite book and why?
- If you could make one change to the world, what would it be?
- Tell me something you are passionate about..
- What is the scariest/hardest thing you’ve had to do?
- Where do you think we go when we die?
- If you had to choose between a ticket that gave you unlimited flights/ferries to any country you desired for the rest of your life or a bag of money worth £100,000,000 which would you choose and why?
I’m intrigued to hear from my followers (nominated or not) what your answers would be, so feel free to comment yours here too 🙂
- Anna Rose Meeds
- Green Embers
- Ker’s Corner
- pink jumpers
- The War In My Brain
- boy with a hat
- at least i have a brain
Thanks for reading!