Blogging Anniversary – 4 Years

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Writing in diary’s is something I’ve done from a very young age. I’ve had so many journals and note books since then that have held some good and bad memories. Some of these I’ve kept to look back on and some of these had to be burned to rid of the past. It’s always been my sanctuary. Somewhere I can express my deepest, darkest thoughts and not be judged. Somewhere I’m able to vent my anger and question reality, humanity and everything in between. It’s all I’ve ever known. When I felt frustrated growing up in a world that I didn’t fit in to, I’d write in my journals to keep myself sane. It really was my outlet.

It’s been 4 years since I signed up to WordPress. I can’t believe it’s been so long! When I was diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome & ADHD I discovered forums. These forums helped me understand myself and piece together all of the missing pieces in my life which led me here. I started using WordPress after doing some research into the most efficient and easy blogging platform for writers. It’s the best decision I ever made.

I’ve met some amazing people here. Some of whom I still remain in contact with and some who have shown their presence briefly but taught me a thing or two along the way. I feel grateful to connect with so many different yet beautiful characters. I used to despise people. I felt betrayed by them all and found them strange. That was until I started blogging and realised there are so many people out there like me that understand and relate. The connection is something I’ll never lose. The connection is strong. I’ve learnt that not all humans are evil and horrible. I am slowly able to gain trust but it’s all baby steps.

There was a time a while back where I contemplated deleting this blog. I really had to think long and hard about it. Do I delete it, like I do with everything that I no longer commit to? Well, I didn’t and I’m so happy that I kept it up and running. I’ve had a few opportunities along my journey of blogging and writing which I avoided because of my lack of courage and commitment. It crushes me to let these opportunities go, but that’s the easy way out. I’ve had a few more opportunities crop up lately which I’m taking in to consideration and I’m really hoping I will commit to these.

Anyway guys, it’s been a pleasure meeting and getting to know you all. I hope you’ve had a productive week and a relaxed weekend!

 

Love & Light, always.

Song Choices With Writing

Hey guys,

I just want to say a massive Thank You to everyone on here that has shown me love, care & genuine kindness on my blog. I have never really found it easy to be open & expressive at the same time. I have never felt so comfortable to be myself & it’s thanks to you guys that I am able to do so now. 

I finally feel free! I finally feel myself 🙂 I really feel this blog has saved me from getting buried any deeper in this horrible mind state. I have a new purpose in the evenings, just checking in on here & being open with my writing and hearing back from you lovely people just makes my day. You are all amazing human beings that I am so lucky to have met on here. 

I haven’t started on any short stories as of yet. I have been in a strange mood since coming out of a low episode so I’m waiting on my imagination to kick start 🙂 I am quite excited to see what I can do with all your brilliant ideas! Thanks again!

Anyway so yes, I just wanted to state how much I appreciate each and everyone on of you in all your unique and special ways.

I also have a small question for all of you..I’m intrigued to know of any songs/song that gets you in creative mode or in a reflective mode. I want to get a taste of what gets you guys in the mood to do what you do best. 

Short Story Ideas Please?!

So I’ve recently been having these urges to do something creative. Whether it be a drawing or a short story. What I am asking from my lovely followers is…an idea of what to write my short story on for you guys to read. I don’t mind how crazy, romantic, weird etc just let me know what you would like to read & that can be my goal! 🙂

So guys please comment some ideas so I can get busy 😉

Whoever Told Us..

Whoever told us we have to grow up is lying. Invite those fairy tales back in that once filled our minds.

Whoever said time is important is sly. Appreciate each and every day without thinking too far ahead & time isn’t relevant.

Whoever made us believe a ‘perfect’ lifestyle is working yourself to death to afford your house & other material objects has tricked us. Take every material object out of the equation and I promise you a ego-less life.

Whoever bellowed those in power rule are evil. Everyone on this earth is equal, do not let anyone tell you different.

Whoever made us believe that we own this planet is absurd. We own no such thing, the earth owns us.

Whoever gave you the impression we live in a safe place is wrong. We live in a world full of greed, hatred, anger & evil. Be more compassionate towards everyone & lets hope for change.

Whoever claimed the more money you make the higher up you are are silly. Money can’t buy you time darlings…..& money does not equal intelligence. Simple.

The Writer’s Block Is Back

So…. 

The dreaded writer’s block has found her way back to me. I have been sat here for a few nights writing & deleting. I haven’t had a block in quite some time, I was on a roll! I hate leaving my blog silent so thought I’d ask you lovely bloggers if you had any tips or inspiration for my mind to get working on? I would be so grateful! 🙂

Love to you all.

Goodbye My Dears..

Those black roots tying me to the ground have dissolved. The invisible bond now broken. That dark sky once intriguing invites some light. The highest mountains that once seemed impossible to climb, are now closer in sight. The roar of dark lions echo far away in the distance. Goodbye my dears. Bare branches stemming off above me no longer shadowing my journey. No more eyes peering through spy holes, in hope I’d fuck up. The rivers that surrounded me with washed up tears & fears, no longer. The interrupted thoughts of hope are vanishing slowly but surely. The voice is louder than ever before. She talks of honesty & emotions. Acceptance & Gratefulness. Her mind still a labyrinth of thoughts. Disorientated yet understandable.

Peacocks. Beautiful peacocks. I wish for a blank canvas. A mind full of beautiful thoughts. Beautiful everything. Beautiful colouring. A pinkish mood. A passionate feeling every other hour of the day. The patterned zebra. Those clear oceans with visible jellyfish. Star fish leaving prints. The coconuts falling with a ‘thud’.  The soft caress of sand granules. A brilliantly expressed piece of art. Words jotted all over countless pages. Instant photographs pinned somewhere on the canvas. A few purple petals hanging down. Pull a star closer. Dim the negatives.  

The Welcomed Cure

 

Let this substance tip me over the edge

Guide me to the places I yearned to be

Eyes locking with countless strangers

What is this look in your eyes?

Feeling superior, walking on clouds

Who can I inject words of randomness into now? 

Let me be the story teller for the night

Lure you in with words of secrecy

Tell you things you never knew

 

Why can’t I feel this way forever?

I would do anything for this substance to run through my veins

A different half of me..

Deep down in midst of confusion I seek you

My appealing way out

Only a drip away to the ultimate dream

It won’t be long before my lips reunite 

Icy cold, sharp tasting.

My new friend.